So this is my first ever letter writing and SL entry so please bear with me :))   For a long time, I thought about how am I going to answer THE question that I know is inevitable, "What happened? How did you get that?" and believe it or not the first time that I heard that, my auto answer was "I got scratched by my dog since she was so playful/ I got caught with the steel wire at home" (There was band aids on it at the time) It's so dumb. Imagine while saying those words you try not to panic and avoid conversation at the same time. A literal nightmare for me since those emotions of mine were so fresh at the time.

That was year 2024, and now, well I'm still trying to be comfortable with it but of course everytime I'm outside or I meet new people, there are times where I try to hide it, not because I'm ashamed of it but because I'm trying to avoid the stare. That specific stare that people give when their trying to be comfortable with it or just want to say something but can't at the same time. I know that stare, I've experienced that stare my whole clinical internship.

Since I'm entering this whole new journey where I am about to start a new chapter of my life in the medical field where I'm gonna be in close contact with people of different ages, I know there will be questions and doubt and glances. I found the most beautiful answer that I'll give when that time comes. I'll tell them that these scars are a great reminder of a great thing that happened to me, not bad but GREAT. You know why? because it's a reminder that I once was able to go through the darkest time in my life. And that is courage, it takes great strength to see it from a different angle. It's a form of motivation in a way that I've already went through my darkest, I'll be able to overcome the present and face my future with a kinder, gentler heart towards myself.

So if you are going through it or have it, it's okay to be afraid and be uncomfortable with it. You don't owe anyone anything. You go through it and feel everything that you want to feel but don't hang around it too much. You got this u beautiful badass human being! ;)