Hey you, this is you from ten years ago. I have been trying to understand myself and be more intentional with my mental health and I have come to learn that reflecting on how the past might manifest in your present is really important, so I have really been thinking about you and what you went through out there in uni. You must have felt so alone, so abandoned, so ashamed, so disappointed in yourself. You must have felt so scared. I have got to give you credit for making it through it, I know it was not easy, it was so unfamiliar and you were so far from home, and the person who was supposed to be by your side through it all left you to handle it alone. And then when you came home, the elephant in the room was brewing before being addressed, is that why you dont like confrontational conversations now?is that one of the reasons? You needed support that time, your young mind couldn't handle it all alone, you were still learning the world, you were still learning how to love, how to trust, how to live.

You blocked out most of the things that happened during that time, and I can understand why, but unfortunately they are not decaying and burying only prolongs the time you have to address them. Maybe writing to you now will convince you to begin facing them head on and accepting the damage they did to you. You are getting better, you started a mental health NGO, imagine that! You will be alright.