I just found out that I have a large mass on my kidney. I've been in a bit of an emotional limbo contemplating that it could be best case or worse case scenario under the circumstances. I've already come to terms with needing the kidney removed, but based on what I was told about its nature, I’ve been more worried about what news might come after. It's been difficult to understand how i should feel while I'm in the middle of the tunnel and not knowing what's on the other side, but I know it's something I will have to see for myself when I reach that point. Throughout my life, I’ve always had trouble processing my emotions and I’ve never really contemplated my mortality until now. As such, this past month has been emotionally challenging. Yet in finding myself wanting to share, I feel like some of that burden has been taken off my shoulders. While I still feel uncertainty, I feel more courage now to say that I’m ready for whatever the news may be.